Day Twelve: Motivation

I think one of the biggest struggles in taking care of ourselves is motivation. We change for our health, for other people's approval, but how often do we change for ourselves? This is the best motivation: our own self-esteem, self-worth and happiness. Yet, so often it is the last thing on the list of reasons for change. Somehow feeling better about ourselves is not a good enough motivation? This should not be. I have had several people who know my whole life story telling me I am so strong, that they don't understand how I am handling myself so well. I will repeat that I don't feel strong most of the time, but no one else can make this decision for me. No one can make me take care of myself. No one can make me make changes to make myself happy. I have to do these things for myself. While I am struggling so much of the time, I am starting to feel more like myself again. This is a great feeling. I don't feel like I am forcing myself into a pre-made box to fit expectations that I don't meet. Sometimes it takes being broken to become fixed.
I went to the gym today and it felt amazing. I had a rough end to the work day, but I made myself go anyway. I was meeting a friend and didn't want to let her down, but I also knew coming home and wallowing would not help. So if you want some motivation, just know that you are the only one who can take care of you best. Even when you don't feel like it, "be the change you want to see in your world" until you are able to see the change and feel like being motivated. Happiness is a choice, but no one can make it for you. You are loved and deserve the best of life. So get the best and don't settle.
Have a super, fantastic, great day!
Mandiy