Day Nine: Confession

I don't want to get completely out of the habit of writing here and I also feel like a fraud. People keep telling me I'm handling my "issues" for a lack of better word so well and that I seem so strong. I don't feel this way 90% of the time. I don't go in our bedroom except to put clothes away or get more out. I moved everything from our shower to the guest bath and I sleep on the couch. I took down all the pictures in the living room and broke about half of them. I want to throw up every time I get a new message on facebook or email that I wasn't expecting. I barely eat and I can't sleep. I've gotten two tattoos and two piercings in 3 days and dyed my hair last night. I think that most of this is normal, but it doesn't sound strong to me. I know I'll be fine, and I know I have soooo many people who love me and are there for me, so please don't get me wrong. I just feel dishonest because I put on a strong front to trick even myself most of the day. Just needed to get that out.

I am going to try to have a super, fantastic, great day and I hope you do as well!
Mandiy